Final Exams Next Week and I Am Unprepared …I Think
I have two exams next week and two more the week after. I learnt stuff, for sure, but I’m not confident in my ability to concisely articulate my learning’s through freehand writing without the luxury of the revision process. I do not like examinations, period.
No, that can’t be the real reason why I’m hating this pre-exam vibe leading up to the exams. There were a few course readings, lectures and tutorials I just plain neglected. I feel like an idiot now, which I don’t like, only I’m thinking whether this is the point of this whole exam period, considering that being a dunce means having an incapacity to learn, and I am suffering from a mental deficiency of having no way of knowing what the exam questions are going to be, so maybe I shouldn’t worry about not knowing, you know, because it’s the knowledge of the exam that’s inducing this state of mind. Therefore, my actions could never have preempted me from feeling the way I do right now; this feeling was inevitable and serves a purpose. I suppose all I’m meant to gain during this period is a sense of encouragement to study. Hmm…Or would acknowledging that my idiocy is a repercussion of the institution and not my actions be counterproductive to my studying towards answering the intentionally undisclosed exam questions? Back to square one again, Fin. Seriously, who the heck likes exams? DAMN YOU EXAMS!!! You’re going to make a fool out of me! By making me, knowledgeable… 😕 Well at least I’m smart enough to recognize my own dumbness. Do they give marks for that?
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