Reclaiming Anonymity: A Private Affair [F]
Anonymity — I appreciate what this allows people to do and feel when they recognize they have it. When I began this blog for instance, I didn’t know what I was doing or care much about how I was doing it and for whom would see it. Over time I came to understand that blogging was for me, and this blog was my space where I didn’t have to be shy or censor myself for the sake of modesty or judgment from the world. It was fun. It was only when I realized that people I knew and cared about were visiting me that I began to filter my content to what I deemed suitable for them to read. My sister and younger brother for instance. This also meant I couldn’t write about my friends anymore either. Which isn’t a bad thing, but for myself, I don’t open up to people in my life, so writing is something I need.
This blog changed for the better and made me a better writer for it, but I also lost a personal mechanism for coping with my real life and my wishful thoughts. I truly believe I need writing in order to exorcise my thoughts and feelings on the regular, and I can’t do that on this blog anymore. I want that to change. Hence the reason why I am changing the general settings from public to private as of today. In my life right now, I could really use the benefits that come from journaling. No one visiting had gotten to know me any better anyway, so maybe it is about time I got to know myself, and experiment with this medium.
